T’was Nay not nigh

T’was Nay not nigh

She broke my heart

With her wicked weary smile,

Down crumbled my defences

Wall I had so hard worked to build

Vulnerable, naked, open to attack, She left me deflated.

Close, near, nigh I moved,

Touch, feel and caress I did,

No…yes, maybe, please stop!

T’was said, her no actually

Resonates her desire, her will, her yes.

Onward I waded, through the marshy swamp,

Insect infested, murky and blurry

Wham! Head first, I hit a boulder,

Sinking, slowly dying, diminishing light

The ghost of my persona eulogises my soul.

Schizophrenic, suicidal, discombobulated,

Raped, betrayed, defiled I find,

My heart, my soul, my dwindling hope

Eudemonia, no more, a bleak existence

To my love, next time, I’ll heed your NO!